So what's your story?? I was giving your profile a look and it says you are only looking for friends. that's great. your postings have all been great--totally worthy of comment. Heck I don't have to agree with you all the time to respect you :) and like that you are an active poster and have opinions. But what is up with yor main picture? It is so... well more than just looking for friends kind of picture. you have tons of cute pictures on your profil, but that one by far is the sexiest--why did you choose to have that one as your main picture? And why did you include the pictures of the hot guys? not that I, or probably any of our fellow females here mind the addition, but i was just curious about them--like who the heck are they?? you need some caption on those bad boys!hahha!! of course now anyone that reads this will have to go check them out ;) okay well that was kind of it, thanks for being on here, it is great to have some one who's opinons I find interesting. Oh yeah, the thing that started the whole curiosity in the first place-- your name, how did you come up with your screen name for this site? what does it mean? --S
So what's your story?? I was giving your profile a look and it says you are only looking for friends. that's great. your postings have all been great--totally worthy of comment. Heck I don't have to agree with you all the time to respect you :) and like that you are an active poster and have opinions. But what is up with yor main picture? It is so... well more than just looking for friends kind of picture. you have tons of cute pictures on your profil, but that one by far is the sexiest--why did you choose to have that one as your main picture? And why did you include the pictures of the hot guys? not that I, or probably any of our fellow females here mind the addition, but i was just curious about them--like who the heck are they?? you need some caption on those bad boys!hahha!! of course now anyone that reads this will have to go check them out ;) okay well that was kind of it, thanks for being on here, it is great to have some one who's opinons I find interesting. Oh yeah, the thing that started the whole curiosity in the first place-- your name, how did you come up with your screen name for this site? what does it mean? --S
Angel sorry I haven't been around very much, I've just been having a hard time and really don't get on here much any more. things have just been going wrong one after another lately--but I know that is just how it goes sometimes and it can't continue on like this forever!! god forbid! I'm just holding on trying to wait it out for the good times to roll back around. anyhow for now the best way to get in touch with me is at a regular e-mail account. IM BACK blog, you should go and check and see if it made it through the review. talk to you later!! oh and ps are you truly the dream girl of all men?? dude, I saw your post about foot ball! I swear I know atleast a hundred men who would do anything for a woman like you! hahaha! --Sarah
Angel sorry I haven't been around very much, I've just been having a hard time and really don't get on here much any more. things have just been going wrong one after another lately--but I know that is just how it goes sometimes and it can't continue on like this forever!! god forbid! I'm just holding on trying to wait it out for the good times to roll back around. anyhow for now the best way to get in touch with me is at a regular e-mail account. IM BACK blog, you should go and check and see if it made it through the review. talk to you later!! oh and ps are you truly the dream girl of all men?? dude, I saw your post about foot ball! I swear I know atleast a hundred men who would do anything for a woman like you! hahaha! --Sarah
Angel, Well yes, it sounds like you have your hands full and a very very interconnected life. Between your family, his family, friends, and military you are one busy woman--I'm surprised you find time to share on these blogs, none the less any time for your self! With my two munchkins I sometimes feel like that but in all honesty I probably have more time on my hands now a days than ever before. Since we are so far away from our families, my husband is no longer in the military and I'm out of college I really have become somewhat stuck in my stay at home routine with the kids. But on the flip side my three year old, Ethan, and I have a blast most days. Right now he is trying out his big sisters roller skates on the living room carpet. I'm trying to enjoy these early years as much as possible. Do you miss having little ones around? do you think you would ever have more children given the right circumstances? In addition to my two babies I have a 17 year old half sister and just turned 14 year old half sister that I am very close too. There is definitely a partial maternal feeling towards them. I played a major role in the care giving the first few years of their lives and have always maintained close relationships with them. When they come to visit it often feels like I've got 4 kids covering a very wide range, and while it is odd in some respects--in others it works out just fine. Oh well just a little side rant there I guess. So hey do you still live near your extended family? Or because of the military have you had to move away? We've never lived close to my husbands family really. We met when he was stationed in San Diego where I am from so he sort of intergrated into my family, but I never really mixed much into his. We talk so infrequently as it is I have a hard time imagining how we would keep up with eachother if my husband and I ever split. I don't think they would really hold it against me if we did, but at the same time, they aren't especially close to me or even the kids really for that matter. It's kinda sad. I know they care for and love them but they really haven't built much of a relationship with them which is too bad. ugh... too much to think about. as I always fall back on, I'm on the 15 year plan as long as there are no major changes to life. Hang on for 15 years... till the kids are out of school then think about myself. I know plenty of folks think it is pathetic, but right now it is where I am at. at least today it is ;) I just figure in the grand sceme of things my life is not that bad, I'm just not that truly happy with it. So I do what I can to make myself happy without steping over lines and then maybe someday if I feel I really need more in my life...well maybe then I'll consider upseting everyone's life. For now I'm just happy making some friends on line--most of whom end up being female and just seem more able to relate ya know! crazy! Guess I'm not really in the market for a "relationship" with mr. right-- rather just some friends to hang out with and shot the sh*t with;) Talk to you later, my little skater is getting bored--we've got to get to the store so the rest of the family will have something to eat for dinner tonight! fun-fun ;) --sarah
Angel, Well yes, it sounds like you have your hands full and a very very interconnected life. Between your family, his family, friends, and military you are one busy woman--I'm surprised you find time to share on these blogs, none the less any time for your self! With my two munchkins I sometimes feel like that but in all honesty I probably have more time on my hands now a days than ever before. Since we are so far away from our families, my husband is no longer in the military and I'm out of college I really have become somewhat stuck in my stay at home routine with the kids. But on the flip side my three year old, Ethan, and I have a blast most days. Right now he is trying out his big sisters roller skates on the living room carpet. I'm trying to enjoy these early years as much as possible. Do you miss having little ones around? do you think you would ever have more children given the right circumstances? In addition to my two babies I have a 17 year old half sister and just turned 14 year old half sister that I am very close too. There is definitely a partial maternal feeling towards them. I played a major role in the care giving the first few years of their lives and have always maintained close relationships with them. When they come to visit it often feels like I've got 4 kids covering a very wide range, and while it is odd in some respects--in others it works out just fine. Oh well just a little side rant there I guess. So hey do you still live near your extended family? Or because of the military have you had to move away? We've never lived close to my husbands family really. We met when he was stationed in San Diego where I am from so he sort of intergrated into my family, but I never really mixed much into his. We talk so infrequently as it is I have a hard time imagining how we would keep up with eachother if my husband and I ever split. I don't think they would really hold it against me if we did, but at the same time, they aren't especially close to me or even the kids really for that matter. It's kinda sad. I know they care for and love them but they really haven't built much of a relationship with them which is too bad. ugh... too much to think about. as I always fall back on, I'm on the 15 year plan as long as there are no major changes to life. Hang on for 15 years... till the kids are out of school then think about myself. I know plenty of folks think it is pathetic, but right now it is where I am at. at least today it is ;) I just figure in the grand sceme of things my life is not that bad, I'm just not that truly happy with it. So I do what I can to make myself happy without steping over lines and then maybe someday if I feel I really need more in my life...well maybe then I'll consider upseting everyone's life. For now I'm just happy making some friends on line--most of whom end up being female and just seem more able to relate ya know! crazy! Guess I'm not really in the market for a "relationship" with mr. right-- rather just some friends to hang out with and shot the sh*t with;) Talk to you later, my little skater is getting bored--we've got to get to the store so the rest of the family will have something to eat for dinner tonight! fun-fun ;) --sarah
I was touched by your last comment Sarah ....thank you for that last blog it was touching to say the least.My son Brandon will be 13 on Nov.27th,but we'll have his party on the 25th.My birthday is the 21st.I'll be 100 ...(haha).Breanna my second child will be 11 on April 15th (Tax day)& my youngest Deshondra will be 9 on Dec.16'th.....Both of our families are very close & will remain that way.I have told everyone in the family that he & I will remain tight as well....I told everyone to think of it that way & remeber we all will still be just as close & will still be family & everyone is at ease after they heard that from me.So everyone is still close .I have not gone to any therapy ......I just have my friends to talk to if I need it & thats how I've always wanted it to be & it's good for me.I still am very tight with the wives in my husbands battalion ....we will always stay close as well & the rest of the marines in his unit still check in on me & remind me that I still have a home with the battalion & never to be a stranger ...so everyone has been very kind & loving to us & comrodery couldnt be any deeper.As for you & me Sarrah ,it would be cool to chat & hang out in a bar & drink talk about anything....if we were in the same town we would be doing that from time to time but we dont live that close to one another so we will chat here... I have so many errons to run today so I need to go now.Have a good day & I will talk with you again soon...& Sarah it is nice to have made another great friend !
Angel
I was touched by your last comment Sarah ....thank you for that last blog it was touching to say the least.My son Brandon will be 13 on Nov.27th,but we'll have his party on the 25th.My birthday is the 21st.I'll be 100 ...(haha).Breanna my second child will be 11 on April 15th (Tax day)& my youngest Deshondra will be 9 on Dec.16'th.....Both of our families are very close & will remain that way.I have told everyone in the family that he & I will remain tight as well....I told everyone to think of it that way & remeber we all will still be just as close & will still be family & everyone is at ease after they heard that from me.So everyone is still close .I have not gone to any therapy ......I just have my friends to talk to if I need it & thats how I've always wanted it to be & it's good for me.I still am very tight with the wives in my husbands battalion ....we will always stay close as well & the rest of the marines in his unit still check in on me & remind me that I still have a home with the battalion & never to be a stranger ...so everyone has been very kind & loving to us & comrodery couldnt be any deeper.As for you & me Sarrah ,it would be cool to chat & hang out in a bar & drink talk about anything....if we were in the same town we would be doing that from time to time but we dont live that close to one another so we will chat here... I have so many errons to run today so I need to go now.Have a good day & I will talk with you again soon...& Sarah it is nice to have made another great friend !
Well thank you so much......I honestly am left speechless.You have got to be one of the sweetest men I know.I'm so lucky to have you for a friend.Thank you for being there for me.It has been a difficult year.....
Angel
Well thank you so much......I honestly am left speechless.You have got to be one of the sweetest men I know.I'm so lucky to have you for a friend.Thank you for being there for me.It has been a difficult year.....
That is an amazing story angel. I think it is easy on here to forget that people who post are more than just what shows up on their blogs. I guess I was starting to get a hint of that there was more to you than I thought by just looking at your picture, which is why I questioned your choice in pictures. The way your write, the hint of the story untold here is so deep and so sweet... I don't know. It's low of me to be so judgemental I know, but it is so easy in the society to jump to conclusions/judgement. I'll have to say I'm sorry here for doing so. It was more than that though i have to admit. When I looked at your other pictures, that is when I thought, man she is a beautiful woman! The candid, less posed shots really seemed to show more true beauty to me-- add to that a sharp mind and obviously a deep and caring heart, you are shaping up as a pretty special person in my book. It's odd because I find myself thinking, hey, this woman is fairly darn cool--someone I wouldn't mind calling a friend and wish I could get to know. Yet at the same time I find it pretty hard to say I really know anyone I meet on-line. It seems like so much goes unsaid and unexplored. Some things are just private and though you may talk about them over dinner in a restraunt or in a bar, you don't in a public forum on the internet ya know. Weird. I don't know I guess what I'm trying to say is your story sounds very touching and I had no idea. I wish we were just two gals chating in an old bar and we could really just talk. Just the breif glance at your history has lead me to believe you have done some living and have experinced some things that not everyone has. I can't help but be saddened a little by it, and awed at the same time by your devotion and love for others. you already had my respect before we started this blog, but just so you know (though I doubt that is why you shared what you did) you have it for more reason now. Thanks for giving me, and by doing so the rest of this community, a glimpse of your life.
So deep breath and moving on to the easy questions ;) How many kids do you have?? how old are they? I can't beleive you have known your husband so long!! that is amazing. Are your families close too? Is your spliting up going to be hard on the extended family as well? I'm sorry your husband feels he can't seek professional mental health help. I thought things like this had changed quite a bit in the military. Still at the same time as much as they may have changed, I still haven't seen many people's opinions about seeking help change (especially among men). My husband has refused for years to talk to any professionals about his problems and at times it has really been a strain on the family and everyone around him. At the same time it sounds like you have really really taken some great steps for you and your children. Please tell me you atleast talked to a professional at some point in time--I'm pretty sure things that happen to just one person have a ripple effect on the family as a whole and everyone can use a helping hand at thoes times. Still none the less you sound like you are doing great, or at least have a great over view of the problem at hand in general. I'll keep you in my thoughts.
That is an amazing story angel. I think it is easy on here to forget that people who post are more than just what shows up on their blogs. I guess I was starting to get a hint of that there was more to you than I thought by just looking at your picture, which is why I questioned your choice in pictures. The way your write, the hint of the story untold here is so deep and so sweet... I don't know. It's low of me to be so judgemental I know, but it is so easy in the society to jump to conclusions/judgement. I'll have to say I'm sorry here for doing so. It was more than that though i have to admit. When I looked at your other pictures, that is when I thought, man she is a beautiful woman! The candid, less posed shots really seemed to show more true beauty to me-- add to that a sharp mind and obviously a deep and caring heart, you are shaping up as a pretty special person in my book. It's odd because I find myself thinking, hey, this woman is fairly darn cool--someone I wouldn't mind calling a friend and wish I could get to know. Yet at the same time I find it pretty hard to say I really know anyone I meet on-line. It seems like so much goes unsaid and unexplored. Some things are just private and though you may talk about them over dinner in a restraunt or in a bar, you don't in a public forum on the internet ya know. Weird. I don't know I guess what I'm trying to say is your story sounds very touching and I had no idea. I wish we were just two gals chating in an old bar and we could really just talk. Just the breif glance at your history has lead me to believe you have done some living and have experinced some things that not everyone has. I can't help but be saddened a little by it, and awed at the same time by your devotion and love for others. you already had my respect before we started this blog, but just so you know (though I doubt that is why you shared what you did) you have it for more reason now. Thanks for giving me, and by doing so the rest of this community, a glimpse of your life.
So deep breath and moving on to the easy questions ;) How many kids do you have?? how old are they? I can't beleive you have known your husband so long!! that is amazing. Are your families close too? Is your spliting up going to be hard on the extended family as well? I'm sorry your husband feels he can't seek professional mental health help. I thought things like this had changed quite a bit in the military. Still at the same time as much as they may have changed, I still haven't seen many people's opinions about seeking help change (especially among men). My husband has refused for years to talk to any professionals about his problems and at times it has really been a strain on the family and everyone around him. At the same time it sounds like you have really really taken some great steps for you and your children. Please tell me you atleast talked to a professional at some point in time--I'm pretty sure things that happen to just one person have a ripple effect on the family as a whole and everyone can use a helping hand at thoes times. Still none the less you sound like you are doing great, or at least have a great over view of the problem at hand in general. I'll keep you in my thoughts.
Angel my friend, It's too bad that they don't issue a 'congressional medal of honor' for military spouses...because if they did, I can't think of anyone else who SHOULD be at the top of the recipient's list than you!!!!!!
As to your husband, it is obviously a tragic thing that a good man is turned into something he's not just because he followed orders, went to defend his country, and came home to the realization that he's still at war (but this time with himself);
Please send my respects to him, and my sincerest hope that he is able to defeat the demons that haunt him. My thoughts and prayers will be with you both.
Chris
Angel my friend, It's too bad that they don't issue a 'congressional medal of honor' for military spouses...because if they did, I can't think of anyone else who SHOULD be at the top of the recipient's list than you!!!!!!
As to your husband, it is obviously a tragic thing that a good man is turned into something he's not just because he followed orders, went to defend his country, and came home to the realization that he's still at war (but this time with himself);
Please send my respects to him, and my sincerest hope that he is able to defeat the demons that haunt him. My thoughts and prayers will be with you both.
Careful Sarah, Too many questions, "A busybody thou wilt make thyself indeed!" (lol!) Haven't you ever heard the saying, "Curiosity kills the cat?"
Yes I am giving you a hard time (in a fun sort of way) - This LADY is one I am proud to call 'A FRIEND' - We all put up pics of ourselves in certain ways (sometimes because it's all we have)...might think of it that way....By the way, thanks for your comments about the pics in my profile....
Cheers
Careful Sarah, Too many questions, "A busybody thou wilt make thyself indeed!" (lol!) Haven't you ever heard the saying, "Curiosity kills the cat?"
Yes I am giving you a hard time (in a fun sort of way) - This LADY is one I am proud to call 'A FRIEND' - We all put up pics of ourselves in certain ways (sometimes because it's all we have)...might think of it that way....By the way, thanks for your comments about the pics in my profile....
I enjoy talking about anything & I will answer any questions no matter what .....because after all I have nothing to hide ,but the main reason is thats the best way to get to know someone.First I do need to apologize to you .....I think I hit the report for abuse area .....sorry I'll write them & say it was an accident because it was ,I meant to hit add comment......Thats what I get for being in a hurry.Well I read your blog & I'll answer everything hmmmm where do I begin .I'll start with my profile.I dont have that I'm looking for friends on it .I have all the options on there......marraige,serious relationship,dating ,friends & pen pals ect ect.I'm still legally married to a marine who I will always have love for.I've known him my whole life .....best friends since we were 7 years old & we began going out since 9th grade.We always knew we'd spend the rest of our lives together & he joined the marines so I could take care of the kids & have an easier life.God bless him....What a sacrifice to make for someone you know?I never will be able to thank him for all the things he has done for me & our children.Well as you can see we are getting a divorce.I filed for it a year ago & to this day he wants to save the marraige very bad ! We have no drama or anything like that.He's feild artillery & that pretty much guaranteed 5 deployments to war.The 1st was operation brightstar & then Afghanistan & the rest have been to Iraq.The last deployment really tore us up.....in fact I blame it for the loss of my marraige.On my profile there are pics of marines on it ....my husband is in both pics.They look like a tight bunch huh...we all were.I was key wife volunteer for 9 years & sometimes for more than one battalion....well until they could find thier own of course.I was the one who'd do all the cooking for family day.I made the scrapbooks for our battery...it was normal for 7 to 8 marines to be in my house daily eating at the dinner table with us.If I wasnt cutting thier hair for free then I helped them with other things....they were like my little brothers (Frank was thier Staff Sgt. & they were PFC's ,LCPL's ,he was like thier mentor & he was in charge of them at work.) I wanted them to have a home outside of thier barracks.I would cook for them for thanksgiving & there was a x-mas tree with thier gifts under it...thier were my family.I treasure the picture of them so much I put it on my profile....they'll never be able to stand together in a photo op again .....My husband is the only one still alive from the photo's.I cant tell you how hard that was for me......I can never be able to gather what thats like for him still,bless his aching heart.They dont call it the triangle of death for nothing.....When he came home from that last deployment I knew it would be hard.I knew it would not be the same.I swear it's like a stranger came home to me.It was his voice ,those were his eyes ....that is his uniform & but that was not my husband.From the bottom of my heart I would have no problem telling you or anybody what had gone on for the next 7 months after he got home but I feel it would hurt him ,me,the kids , his image & hurt his career.He's a lifer & the main reason he wont seek help is because he doesnt want it in his record....it was bad what he did to me.I forgive him & I removed myself from the situation.My children are so strong & so smart .....they know thats not the way he really is & they know he is really having a tough time.The kids have even given me thier blessing to find a boyfriend if thats what I want to do.They know he will always be thier dad ect ect.I drive the kids to Camp,Lejuene once a month to see him for a weekend & he still drives down twice a month to see us also.I make sure he knows we did not abandon him & that "I" needed a more peaceful enviroment for my sake ,but so that he understands whole heartedly we are not ever dis-owning him.If he had sought help I never would have filed for divorce.He had that option many times ....even a councler far away from the base so he'd have privacy....He still insists that he'll fix it on his own.....he made his choice & now "I have made mine "& thats how I wound up single again.My whole life gone in one damn deployment.He & I still remain very close & we dont fight .....he needs to know we will always remain close & tight just like any family would,but that does not mean I can take him back.I cant....if you knew - you would understand "fully" why I cant,but that does not mean I will desert him as a friend or a family member.I also will not allow the divorce to be final while he is in Iraq again.I could not do that to him but ,the divorce is going to go through & once I make my mind up....it's made up & thats how I am.I still treat him with respect & make sure he's doing ok & I have his picture on my profile to show respect for him....it hurts him to see my profile so I make sure he knows he'll always be a part of me , but he also understands I'm moving foward in my life as well.We will always be close friends .....just like when we were little....& to any man who is wanting to get to know me & date me ....there is no need to fear.....I do not cheat or hide anything.You dont need to feel like you cant compete with him or feel threatend by him.The men I have met on here have been very understanding & it has never caused any problems,if anything they tend to respect me more for protecting what happend to him rather than do what people do when they split....allow things to become ugly.I will never allow that to occur.I'm trustworthy & I'm a good girl who really would like only the simple things in life .I am looking for a relationship ...I miss being someones girl .I'm not going to rush into anything nor push it away if it happens...if I dont have a match .......well then I've made a friend....a win win situation for me either way....I certainly have my options layed out for me though."Every" man here has emailed me & I write anyone who would like to talk with me.Now lets discuss my first picture on my profile,well it's simple I'm willing to let the men get an idea of what thier working with, not just emotionally but physically as well.Thier men & they are going to want to have an idea of what you look like....thier only human .....we want to see the men & what they have to offer & I dont mean the benefits... We want to see thier body & thier personality & be able to have a clear distinct picture of who that person is mind ,body & soul & I'm willing to do the same for them as well.I have much better pics than those I have on here of me but those will do just fine & thats why I have the first one showing like that.They are going to be attracted first ,then get to know me & see if we will hit it off or be better off as friends.But I'm looking for a date or a boyfriend & if it leads to love & marraige & more babies then I'm certainly open to allowing my life to become full circle again.And as for you,you seem like a neat person.I enjoy reading the blogs & it never bothers me if I share the same opinions with you or anyone else because thats the beauty of our country.....the free speech."We the people" & the free speech that goes hand & hand with it.You have a nice day & I will chat with you again soon !
Angel
I enjoy talking about anything & I will answer any questions no matter what .....because after all I have nothing to hide ,but the main reason is thats the best way to get to know someone.First I do need to apologize to you .....I think I hit the report for abuse area .....sorry I'll write them & say it was an accident because it was ,I meant to hit add comment......Thats what I get for being in a hurry.Well I read your blog & I'll answer everything hmmmm where do I begin .I'll start with my profile.I dont have that I'm looking for friends on it .I have all the options on there......marraige,serious relationship,dating ,friends & pen pals ect ect.I'm still legally married to a marine who I will always have love for.I've known him my whole life .....best friends since we were 7 years old & we began going out since 9th grade.We always knew we'd spend the rest of our lives together & he joined the marines so I could take care of the kids & have an easier life.God bless him....What a sacrifice to make for someone you know?I never will be able to thank him for all the things he has done for me & our children.Well as you can see we are getting a divorce.I filed for it a year ago & to this day he wants to save the marraige very bad ! We have no drama or anything like that.He's feild artillery & that pretty much guaranteed 5 deployments to war.The 1st was operation brightstar & then Afghanistan & the rest have been to Iraq.The last deployment really tore us up.....in fact I blame it for the loss of my marraige.On my profile there are pics of marines on it ....my husband is in both pics.They look like a tight bunch huh...we all were.I was key wife volunteer for 9 years & sometimes for more than one battalion....well until they could find thier own of course.I was the one who'd do all the cooking for family day.I made the scrapbooks for our battery...it was normal for 7 to 8 marines to be in my house daily eating at the dinner table with us.If I wasnt cutting thier hair for free then I helped them with other things....they were like my little brothers (Frank was thier Staff Sgt. & they were PFC's ,LCPL's ,he was like thier mentor & he was in charge of them at work.) I wanted them to have a home outside of thier barracks.I would cook for them for thanksgiving & there was a x-mas tree with thier gifts under it...thier were my family.I treasure the picture of them so much I put it on my profile....they'll never be able to stand together in a photo op again .....My husband is the only one still alive from the photo's.I cant tell you how hard that was for me......I can never be able to gather what thats like for him still,bless his aching heart.They dont call it the triangle of death for nothing.....When he came home from that last deployment I knew it would be hard.I knew it would not be the same.I swear it's like a stranger came home to me.It was his voice ,those were his eyes ....that is his uniform & but that was not my husband.From the bottom of my heart I would have no problem telling you or anybody what had gone on for the next 7 months after he got home but I feel it would hurt him ,me,the kids , his image & hurt his career.He's a lifer & the main reason he wont seek help is because he doesnt want it in his record....it was bad what he did to me.I forgive him & I removed myself from the situation.My children are so strong & so smart .....they know thats not the way he really is & they know he is really having a tough time.The kids have even given me thier blessing to find a boyfriend if thats what I want to do.They know he will always be thier dad ect ect.I drive the kids to Camp,Lejuene once a month to see him for a weekend & he still drives down twice a month to see us also.I make sure he knows we did not abandon him & that "I" needed a more peaceful enviroment for my sake ,but so that he understands whole heartedly we are not ever dis-owning him.If he had sought help I never would have filed for divorce.He had that option many times ....even a councler far away from the base so he'd have privacy....He still insists that he'll fix it on his own.....he made his choice & now "I have made mine "& thats how I wound up single again.My whole life gone in one damn deployment.He & I still remain very close & we dont fight .....he needs to know we will always remain close & tight just like any family would,but that does not mean I can take him back.I cant....if you knew - you would understand "fully" why I cant,but that does not mean I will desert him as a friend or a family member.I also will not allow the divorce to be final while he is in Iraq again.I could not do that to him but ,the divorce is going to go through & once I make my mind up....it's made up & thats how I am.I still treat him with respect & make sure he's doing ok & I have his picture on my profile to show respect for him....it hurts him to see my profile so I make sure he knows he'll always be a part of me , but he also understands I'm moving foward in my life as well.We will always be close friends .....just like when we were little....& to any man who is wanting to get to know me & date me ....there is no need to fear.....I do not cheat or hide anything.You dont need to feel like you cant compete with him or feel threatend by him.The men I have met on here have been very understanding & it has never caused any problems,if anything they tend to respect me more for protecting what happend to him rather than do what people do when they split....allow things to become ugly.I will never allow that to occur.I'm trustworthy & I'm a good girl who really would like only the simple things in life .I am looking for a relationship ...I miss being someones girl .I'm not going to rush into anything nor push it away if it happens...if I dont have a match .......well then I've made a friend....a win win situation for me either way....I certainly have my options layed out for me though."Every" man here has emailed me & I write anyone who would like to talk with me.Now lets discuss my first picture on my profile,well it's simple I'm willing to let the men get an idea of what thier working with, not just emotionally but physically as well.Thier men & they are going to want to have an idea of what you look like....thier only human .....we want to see the men & what they have to offer & I dont mean the benefits... We want to see thier body & thier personality & be able to have a clear distinct picture of who that person is mind ,body & soul & I'm willing to do the same for them as well.I have much better pics than those I have on here of me but those will do just fine & thats why I have the first one showing like that.They are going to be attracted first ,then get to know me & see if we will hit it off or be better off as friends.But I'm looking for a date or a boyfriend & if it leads to love & marraige & more babies then I'm certainly open to allowing my life to become full circle again.And as for you,you seem like a neat person.I enjoy reading the blogs & it never bothers me if I share the same opinions with you or anyone else because thats the beauty of our country.....the free speech."We the people" & the free speech that goes hand & hand with it.You have a nice day & I will chat with you again soon !
