Quoting bella_dreamer:

Have you ever been at a point in your life where you absolutely must make a decision that would/could alter your entire life? Have you ever been able to make a decision without the emotions and totally weighed all aspects and outcomes possible? I have never done such a thing in my entire life. To be truthful, it scares me. I am a person who has lived life with the fullest of emotions, have thought things out (ad naseum) but never without the other. Now on top of this decision add a timeframe! Oh my goodness.....You remember me mention, Mr. Yummy? Mr. 25-year old army? Mr. Iwanttomarryyou! Who you have not heard of is Mr. 27-year old who is getting out of the air force and wants to travel the world with me! Mr. 27-year old knows about Mr. Army and vice versa. But Mr. Army does not know about Mr. Air Force wanting me to travel extensively with him. Don't get me wrong, I am not involved with Mr. 27 year old other than being friends. He has other ideas. He makes me laugh and feel as though I am all that matters. I tease him that I am not going to get involved with him and am waiting for Mr. mid-20 Marine! lol Mr. Army is the epitome of what a physical and gentleman should be, and any female would be happy and very lucky to have the heart of Mr. Army, but the same problems exist. I am not sure they will ever just disappear or could be resolved. It is my life!... and I am pretty happy with my life. Do I go forth and just see what happens and possibly become ridiculously happy with Mr. Army or should I laugh with Mr. Air Force and see the world? Should I just be me independently? It is not as though in a year I will be able to travel extensively, I do have a son still in school living at home full-time. Do I see either one of these people as a father role to my son, could I see them as someone worthy of being in the lives of me and my son's. Would Mr. 25 year old (actually Mr. 26 year old as of 2 days ago! lol), want to be and realize my son is part of the package? Tough decision, I am sure when the time to decide, I will have already made the decision in my heart and head and follow them both in a joined decision! I just realized that I have already made my decision. Thanks for letting me ramble.....

Have you ever been at a point in your life where you absolutely must make a decision that would/could alter your entire life? Have you ever been able to make a decision without the emotions and totally weighed all aspects and outcomes possible? I have never done such a thing in my entire life. To be truthful, it scares me. I am a person who has lived life with the fullest of emotions, have thought things out (ad naseum) but never without the other. Now on top of this decision add a timeframe! Oh my goodness.....You remember me mention, Mr. Yummy? Mr. 25-year old army? Mr. Iwanttomarryyou! Who you have not heard of is Mr. 27-year old who is getting out of the air force and wants to travel the world with me! Mr. 27-year old knows about Mr. Army and vice versa. But Mr. Army does not know about Mr. Air Force wanting me to travel extensively with him. Don't get me wrong, I am not involved with Mr. 27 year old other than being friends. He has other ideas. He makes me laugh and feel as though I am all that matters. I tease him that I am not going to get involved with him and am waiting for Mr. mid-20 Marine! lol Mr. Army is the epitome of what a physical and gentleman should be, and any female would be happy and very lucky to have the heart of Mr. Army, but the same problems exist. I am not sure they will ever just disappear or could be resolved. It is my life!... and I am pretty happy with my life. Do I go forth and just see what happens and possibly become ridiculously happy with Mr. Army or should I laugh with Mr. Air Force and see the world? Should I just be me independently? It is not as though in a year I will be able to travel extensively, I do have a son still in school living at home full-time. Do I see either one of these people as a father role to my son, could I see them as someone worthy of being in the lives of me and my son's. Would Mr. 25 year old (actually Mr. 26 year old as of 2 days ago! lol), want to be and realize my son is part of the package? Tough decision, I am sure when the time to decide, I will have already made the decision in my heart and head and follow them both in a joined decision! I just realized that I have already made my decision. Thanks for letting me ramble.....